I was upside down ..

I found something that is difficult to describe ..

 but I want to be like those who have a million kinds of stories about it happy friendship ..

 It's hard to tell because I did not understand my heart..

 I passed all been a while but I did not find..

There are things I want to question about this ..

I am not yet open my heart or
I did not find what I was looking for .. ??
 is "friendship"
 The difference is very far away I felt at school. 

At school I thought everyone would envy my friendship ..

 but now what?? I was upside down ..

Huaaa ..
I thought I was getting but I also have to keep a distance and who I am for she/he or they ..

If I could wish .. I get the answer tomorrow .. 

If this a good way with he/she/they..  please god help me 

but if  "Not" help me  how  to move .

who he/she or they ..??
where the place ..??
Please .. thanks :)